Oh, love that will not let me go I rest my weary soul in thee I give you back this life I owe and in your ocean depths its flow may richer, fuller be
Oh, light that follows all my way I yield my flickering torch to thee and my heart restores its borrowed ray that in your sunshine's blaze its day may brighter, fairer be
Oh, joy, that seeks me through the pain I cannot close my heart to thee I trace the rainbow through the rain and feel the promise is not vain that morn shall tearless be
Oh, cross that lifts and holds my head I dare not ask to fly from thee I lay in dust life's glory dead that from the ground there blossoms red life that shall endless be
Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.” - Isaiah 12:2
I'm finding that in times where you feel overcome with despair, it's hard to believe things will get better for you. But I know that we are nearsighted individuals and can't see what's coming. I still don't know what lies ahead for me, but I have to trust and have faith that it is good. "I will trust and not be afraid." Momma gave me something the other day...it's a long ribbon necklace with a key on the end that is engraved with the word "Faith." It was my Grandmother's. So I'm holding onto it, thinking of my Grandmomma, and having faith that everything will be okay. I will be okay. Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.
Is that even how you spell shenanigans? I'm not sure. I never claimed to be a great speller and even though I was just in a show about a spelling bee, it unfortunately did not rub off on me at all. I now can correctly spell boanthropy, flagellate, chimerical, hallux and elanguescence, but that is it. So lower your expectations please. I CAN'T TAKE THIS PRESSURE.
Anyway, this past weekend was Mother's Day and I hope you all spent some great quality time with your Mommy's if you were able to. In the life of my mother, Tonya Godwin, however, it isn't just Mother's DAY. No, no. It is Mother's Day WEEKEND and you better be in her sight for all of it. You might call it a lockdown. My mother actually does call it that. haha. But we had a really great weekend and had some really fun family times. Made a late night run to get icecream after dinner Saturday night, spent some time out by the pool and played Just Dance on the wii ALLLLL weekend. It was seriously the funniest thing I have seen/done in a long time. Since you couldn't be there to witness the hilarity, I will post a little video I took. Notice Jordan complaining about how she's tired the whole way throughout (typical) and Haley being completely focused and serious about it. She is going for blood. And then there's me....laughing like a crazy person behind the camera (also typical).
I'm actually really sore from doing that thing. You can laugh, but it was a SERIOUS workout.
Anyway, it was a great weekend had by all. Such good family times and I enjoyed every second of it. Here are some picsies for you :)
HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY!
And now for a little section I like to call...
QUOTES FROM "THE TON"
(ton as in tonya, not a literal ton):
Things my mother has actually said:
"Isn't it interesting how comets look like sperm?"
(to my sisters and I) "Without me, y'all would be a bunch of stinky, ugly, NOTHINGS!"
"No, I'm not your best friend Jordan.....I'm your worst enemy."
JORDAN: "what if i choked you with this tape measure?"
MOTHER: "what if i pushed your nose into your brain and killed you?"
JORDAN: ".....what?"
"Haley, there is a demon inside of you, and I'm going to BEAT it out of you if I have to."
"I don't like a stinkin' machine, with a stinkin' video camera on it, so you're gonna be on, I'm gonna look on youtube and see you naked! I'm tired of it."
"We're the Godwins. You might have heard of us."
(running to the window to see helicopters as they fly over the house) GIRLS!!! IT'S THE MILITARY!!!!"
With that, I will conclude this post. Hahahah. So thankful for my Momma. She is quite a woman and one HECK of a mother. Oh and in case you haven't seen this little gem yet, here's an oldie but a goodie:
Well, I was a bit of a spoiled girl a couple weeks ago. Peter came to visit for two whole weeks and I have to say I could get used to it. Maybe I will be able to get used to it soon....more on that later :)
It was an awesome two weeks and we filled it with some seriously good times. Let's recap shall we?
He saw Spelling Bee (twice) and was actually used as an audience participant the first time too so I especially enjoyed that haha.
Got all fancied up for the Lyric Subscriber event where I got to cart him around as my arm candy and introduce him to some theatre people who, as it turns out, know how to drop some serious hints (coughINGRIDcough...I hope she is reading this. haha. It was hilarious.).
Had a yummy dinner with Peter's good friend Cary at Papadeaux.
PAUSE.
I have GOT to tell you a story about Cary for a second. So, when Peter was here in March we made plans to go get sushi with Cary and Peter's friend Julia. We were going to meet Cary at his place though and then carpool to the restaurant. Cary lives in Lawrenceville so we had planned to leave around 6 to get there at 7 (assuming traffic was going to be a biatch, because it always is). Well, we left around 6 and to our surprise traffic was no problem at all so we ended up getting there much sooner than we had anticipated. I mean we were a few minutes away from his place and it wasn't even 6:30 yet. So Peter says "Oh wow. We're almost there. We're going to be really early." and I say something to the effect of "Does Cary know this? Maybe you should let him know we're going to be this early." Peter says "Nah, it's fine." and we keep driving. I'm like "okayyyy..." Well right at 6:30 we pull up, go to the door, Peter knocks....the door opens and there stands Cary (who I am meeting for the first time)....IN HIS PAJAMAS. hahahahah. Cary is like "OH HEY PETER thanks a lot for letting me know you were HERE so that I could get DRESSED." hahaha. And of course, I'm like "Yep...I told you so. I toldddd you so." It's my favorite thing to say :) haha. Anyway, it was hilarious and what a great first introduction!
RESUME.
We went to Athens to revisit my old stomping grounds and the place where we first met 8 years ago.
We even went and found the bench outside Brumby Hall where we had our first kiss as nervous little 18 year olds (see pics). Totally looked like creepy old people stalking around the freshman dorms though. Oh well. While we were there we got to meet up with Haley for some coffee and then some of Peter's friends later for drinks and dinner. So much funsies.
our student ID's taken at orientation. HAH!
Went down to McDonough for Easter and Peter met some of my extended family. Aunts, an Uncle and the cousins. Quite a crew so he handled it very well :) He also was subjected to his first Easter photoshoot organized by my mother every year, which he survived so he got major points for that one.
our traditional "everyone looking different directions" pic
Then Peter flew home to see his parents in Orlando for a few days. He had a great time and was supposed to come back late Wednesday night, but of course...that Wednesday was the night of the crazy tornado's in GA. Of course it was. So, first his flight was an hour and a half late taking off. He made it to Atlanta and was LITERALLY hovering over the runway when they turned around and went to Jacksonville, FL instead. Apparently the winds were too strong for them to risk trying to land. So he was stuck at the Jacksonville airport over night (poor baby had to sleep on the airport floor!), but was luckily able to get on a 6:30am flight the next morning and finally got back to ATL. It was so crazy. Definitely glad that he was safe though. I know his mother was too! So between that and the ice storm that tried to ruin everything, we are basically seasoned pro's at dealing with storms and natural disasters.
The next day, we went to Athens AGAIN, but with my family this time to see Jordan's spring voice recital. It was AMAZING. She was INCREDIBLE. Voice of an angel! Funny story: Jordan actually shared a recital time with another student who went after her. Peter was extremely impressed with Jordan's voice and so after the other girl's first song, he LITERALLY turns to me and says OUT LOUD "Her voice really isn't as strong as your sister's." hahahahha. So matter-of-fact. haha. It was true, but you know...we have to keep these things to ourselves until we are in the car on the way home. Momma taught us that rule a lonnnggg time ago. haha. Also while in Athens, we all went out to eat with the van Zyls (Jordan's boyfriend's family) and I am proud to say that during the delicious meal, Peter got his first fat kid stain. hahah. Well, probably not his first, but the first I've ever witnessed. Right of passage in the Godwin family! My sisters especially loved this because "now we know he isn't perfect." haha. Perfect is boring they say.
And just a day and a half after we got back from Athens, he was in a plane, bound once again for the Fatherland. Sigh...I definitely have a love hate relationship with that airport now. It brings him to me, but then it turns around and takes him away. So rude.
Next time it will be ME coming to HIM though! Germany in T minus 16 days!
Remember that song??? Pretty sure I heard it about 2398472398463 times over the years at dance competitions because back in the good 'ole 90's it was apparently every choreographer's jam.
But that's not the point, the point is my boyfriend has this little game he likes to play called, take-a-screenshot-of-courtney-anytime-her-picture-freezes-on-skype. And as you can imagine the VAST majority are absolutely HIDEOUS and I'm pretty sure those are his favorite ones. The worst part??? He sends them to me immediately after taking them. So mean right?!?! I will never understand this sick pleasure of his to capture my ugliest moments for all eternity. He promises me he deletes the worst ones, but I'm not so sure I believe that...hmmmm. Well regardless, I thought I'd share some of these little gems with you. I will say that I deleted all but a few of the REALLY bad ones since they mostly made me want to vomit, but I did save some and others that weren't so bad.
So without further adieu - here we have the "Candid Courtney: Skype Edition" collection. I will admit there are only like three really gross ones in there and even those are pretty mild (so you can imagine how bad the others were), but I still think these are pretty humorous.
So clearly this is one of my better moments.
Glowing...and staring creepily into the camera
Making some important point I'm sure.
Intimidation.
And here begins the downward spiral.
I have no idea.
Looking a little deranged in this one.
So pretty.
This one was particularly disturbing b/c it is the EXACT thinking pose we make fun of my mother for.
Special.
Oh this one is actually cute - right after my Vday flowers were delivered!
Gotta love the mid-blink
Haley was plugging her ears as we said our goodbyes...and this is apparently the face I make when doing so.
And yes I know what you're all thinking - why don't I just retaliate and take hideous pictures of him? Two reasons - my version of skype won't let me do this strangely enough. So my regular way of taking a screen shot involves too many steps and it's usually unfrozen by the time I get to it. ALSO, the few times I HAVE been able to catch him actually turn out to be good pictures! So unfair.
So there ya go friends. How's that for friday night entertainment? It always feels good to laugh at someone else's expense. You're welcome.
I don't know why, but I am FEELIN the need for some retail therapy right now...specifically in the clothing department. Not necessarily for the thrill of spending money (b/c Lord knows that is not thrilling to me), but mainly b/c I NEED to spruce up my wardrobe people. It is in desperate need. Chase usually comments on something every time he walks into my closet. One time he took one look at my lineup of dresses (I have a lot) and was like "WHOA PRINTS." ....he later sort of took it back and realized I do in fact have solid color dresses, but the point stands that my selection was less than impressive. I actually dislike most of what is in my closet I realized. Which is just dumb!!! It's my closet for pete's sake!
So I've decided to go through the whole clean out process. Just get rid of what I never wear (or should never wear) and start fresh. Spring Cleaning right???
The concept of spring cleaning is so brilliant. First of all, accumulating clutter and useless/meaningless things is not a good habit to fall into. And you can take that concept and apply it to other areas of life. It always feels good to clean up things a little and start with fresh outlook.
SUNSHINE MAKES ME HAPPY.
Speaking of sun...I need some badly. My legs are currently in a state that should not be viewed by the naked eye for fear of permanent damage - aka BLINDNESS. I'm not joking people. I used my one day off this weekend to lay by the pool, but it takes more than a day to make any dent in this level of whiteness. And for all you healthy skin people out there, don't worry, I'm not trying to fry myself here. I just want to wear a skirt and look like a normal person. The problem is finding the daylight to enjoy. I'm stuck inside under flourescents all day and then hop in a car to go to a theatre till it's late. It's a big problem....
In other news, I have had some lovely times with people I love over the past several days. Haley came into town for the weekend and we had the best of times. Not doing anything particularly amazing, but that's the beauty of sisters...you enjoy each other's company so much it really doesn't matter what you're doing. Made a DELICIOUSSSS dinner that I am totally patting myself on the back for, had a killer workout where I especially enjoyed beating the crap out of Haley...(maybe I should go into personal training as a side business), heard an awesome and very relevant sermon at church, and had all kinds of much needed sister talk.
Out in the highlands before we stuffed our faces at Noche
THEN I got to go up to Athens Monday night w/ my parents, saw my baby sister Jordan lead worship at Wesley (never heard a more beautiful, God-filled voice), and then had coffee after with everyone plus Jo's bf Ross (who we will henceforth refer to as Rossypoo), Haley and her bf Tyler. The only person missing was MY boyfriend!
Speaking of my boyfriend...he is going to be here in seven days!!! Who's excited??? I know you're excited. Don't try to hide and and act like you ain't either.
So listen....I am FULLY aware of the fact that it has been a completely unacceptable amount of time since my last post, especially considering how much I have to be writing about, but ya know.... sometimes you have to much to write about you don't even know where to start. That's kinda how I'm feeling, so I'm just deciding I'm not going to even try to cover everything that's been going on. It's just not possible at this point and no one wants to read that much anyway no matter how interesting it is.
So I'll make this brief:
Things that happened since I last wrote:
Leader of the Pack opened, had a great run and closed.
I got 2 and a half weeks off from rehearsals/performances of any kind and my first REAL weekend in a lonngggg time. It was amazing.
My sweet boyfriend came to visit for an entire week! Way too short of a week, but we had a great time and I'm counting the days until he's back again. Which happens to be 18 days from now :) And then he will be here for TWO weeks. I mean...for living 5,000 miles away from each other I think we've been able to see each other a pretty good amount. Now if we can just get him a JOB over here we'd be in business!
Chasey came into town for a day and I got to see him! Helped (and by helped I mean sat and watched) him box up some stuff he still had here and then we went out for some late night mexican munchies at Tin Lizzies. Great food and even better convo. I love that boy so MUCH. Need to get myself up to NYC for a weekend getaway and twinsie time asap.
I went to BOSTON for 5 days to rehearse with the other 5 members of my newest artistic endeavor - an all-female a cappella group called Musae. We are currently located in 5 different cities on two different coasts so the concept is really crazy, but after spending 5 days with this group, singing and creating, I know without a shadow of a doubt that I'm supposed to be doing this. We plan to audition for NBC's The Sing Off, but past that, who knows what might be in store :)
Started rehearsals for my next show - The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee at The Legacy Theatre. I am so, so excited about this one. Everyone and their mother has done it already, I know, but we are doing something pretty different with this one. Our director is basically letting us start fresh and create everything from scratch, even down to what our characters would wear. So it is definitely going to be artistically satisfying I think. Not to mention the casting is PERFECT. Don't miss it!
I have officially purchased and started Rosetta Stone (German) and fully intend on being fluent in no time. The grammar is CRAY CRAY, but it sounds a lot like English. So stay tuneedddd!
Just had a GREAT weekend down in McD with the fam. Both sisters were home and we even had a boyfriend in the mix. It was a much needed get away and time to just hang out with everyone. I didn't even realize how long it had been since I'd been home!
And that is all for now I guess. Just wanted to give a quick and dirty update on my life, but I promise to be much more detail oriented in the future. Chase has officially called me out on my lack of blogging so I have to get myself back on track. Because my life is CLEARLY falling apart if I'm not blogging.
Anyway, it is bed time now for me. Gotta get that beauty rest right ladies? :)
so i know it's like, five days past valentine's day, but i'm just now blogging about it. just go with it.
well, as you know, my boo lives 5000 miles away in the father land (or germany, as i like to call it), which means we had to spend our first vday apart. which could have been a bummer, but a) i missed him like crazy before the day and i missed him like crazy after the day, so the actual day wasn't that much worse and b) sending each other physical packages in the mail across the atlantic turned out to be really fun. so i sent him a package and i knew he was sending a package, but i wasn't expecting to get a GORGEOUS delivery of roses the saturday before valentines day too! seriously, how beautiful are these?
and today (yeah, a little late, but sometimes that's what happens when you mail stuff overseas) i got the SWEETEST package in the mail :) seriously....i have the sweetest boyfriend in the entire world. so first of all it was in this precious red box tied up with a red ribbon (i asked, and yes, he did this all himself haha) - impressive, no?!
and that picture on the top is the SWEETEST card you've ever read in your life. this is the picture on the front:
how cute is that??? and INSIDE were all these individually wrapped goodies :) first of all, just the fact that they were individually wrapped was the cutest thing ever. haha. and second of all, two of them involved delicious german chocolate (boy knows the way to my heart)!! so yeah...five days after valentines day, i am still getting presents! hollaaaaa!
and there is a very, very good possibility that i might get the best belated valentine's day present ever in about 11 days...he might actually get to fly over for a week!!! i'm trying my hardest not to get too excited until it is for sure, but ggeeeeezzzz. that would be so amazing.
so stay tuuunneeeddd! and happy valentine's day :)
well, yesterday was the last day of wonderette's performances y'all. i can't actually believe it....it feels like this show has actually taken over my life for the past month and a half so it's strange to just be done with it. it's that thing you go through at the close of most every show (unless you absolutely hate it)...that no matter how time consuming and how stressful a process might have been, you have ultimately grown comfortable in it and the routine itself. that combined with the bonds you've formed with the cast (especially if they're all moving away immediately after) makes leaving it a bit emotional. so here is how i deal with these days:
i don't. yep, i pretend like it's just another day and that i'll see them all the next day to do it all again, and then i just let it hit me a couple days after when i'm home by myself. it's much better that way. no one likes sad and crying goodbyes, so it's better to just basically run out to your car and not give yourself much time to feel anything.
the transition out of wonderettes will be different that most others though b/c i'm literally diving right into tech week for leader of the pack. we open on friday. how insane is that? so now i can officially switch gears, only focus on one show, and gear up for a killer opening night. it's kind of a relief to just have one show in my brain!
sooooo, now it is on to leader of the pack, which i am EXTREMELY excited about. here's a little snipit i took from rehearsal last night - just to give you a feel for the beauty of this set. it's not even close to be done yet as far as snazzing it out goes, but i'm telling you it's going to be BALLIN. excuse my singing directly into the phone mic. normally we'll be singing that stuff in the wings, but for now we were all out in the house. also, googie is a fool. which is clearly why he was cast. haha.
everyone needs to come out and see this one if you can! it's going to be visual candy and audio heaven. sensory overload in the best of ways. also, i get to wear a leather corset and hot pants....which is reason enough. i'm just sayin.
yeah. it's true. i happen to be running myself into the ground at the moment doing two shows AT THE SAME TIME. am i insane??? i think i am. so you all know about Wonderette's, but i'm also now in rehearsals for a show with the atlanta lyric theatre called Leader of the Pack (gonna be hot). so what this means is shows on the weekend and rehearsals during the week. and by the time i open leader of the pack, i will have gone 5 straight weeks without a SINGLE day or night off. not a single one. i mean i can do it, but at this point it's a bit of a mind game. i have to convince myself i'm not tired so that i can even focus on the task at hand. i really am having a blast with both of these shows, but somebody please remind me to never do this to myself again! haha.
speaking of wonderette's though, here is a sweet pic of the cast and our director Dawne from opening night. i really love these girls :) so much talent and such sweet spirits.
oh and here's a lovely little backstage video i took on one of our two show saturday's. we were a TINY bit hyper that day apparently. haha.
i also took a video in leader of the pack rehearsals one day. it was a music rehearsal and i wanted to document a bit of the process while i wasn't actually singing and i happened to catch our sweet caroline in all her candid glory. she loves me for posting this.
i have one more show lined up to do after leader of the pack closes, which is going to be so great, but i have to say that once it closes i am REALLY looking forward to having free time again. and i'm sure my boyfriend will be thrilled as well to have more than 45 min a day to talk to me. and to be able to talk to me when i am not eating at the same time....hahaha. i just remind him that multitasking like that is a SERIOUS life skill, so he should be proud.
in other news I NEED TO WORK OUT. i have had to put aside my gym habit quite a bit to be able have at least an hour a day to just sit and breathe, but i need to get it together. i'm sure my dance partner in the show would appreciate this as well considering he has to throw me around like a ragdoll.
so basically, everyone just pray that i suvive this madness without becoming a crazy person. and in the meantime if you are my friend and i have dropped off the face of the earth, just know that i love you and will be BACK, i promise!
Well...i'm sure many of you were probably wondering what the heck happened to me being that it has been TWENTY THOUSAND YEARS since i last posted. do not fret. I AM ALIVE! and despite the debbie downer-ness of my last post, i have had a pretty amazing last three (and a half) weeks.
SO let's rewiinnndddd back to the funk. things were apparently pretty rough for me that day. but ya know....we're all entitled to have those days right??
anyway, right after that i jumped RIGHT into Wonderette's rehearsal and began the whole show mode thing. you know how that goes. thennn came the snow. the snow that turned into ice and totally shut down the entire city of Atlanta. yeah. this snow:
this would be my rooftop
this snowy rooftop soon turned to treacherous ice though, so don't think it's so pretty. exhibit A:
and while it was pretty awesome to get to work from home 4 days in a row, that ice almost ruined EVERYTHING. how you ask??? well i will tell you. do you remember a few posts back, when i mentioned having a lovely night with a special someone? well that someone would be a really amazing guy who i am just a little crazy about. we will call him peter. which is convenient b/c that is his name.
peter was supposed to be coming over for a date the night the snow/ice hit, but it almost didn't happen b/c the whole city was shut down and the roads were totally iced over. he was in norcross (about 20 min away) so this was very bad. SOMEHOW though (the boy is determined), he managed to find the one running taxi in the city and got to my apt where we had the most lovely pizza date :) but let's rewind a bit first....
here's the story on peter (get ready for it b/c it is crazy). rewind almost 7 and a half years ago to uga freshman orientation. 18 year old courtney and 18 year old peter meet when their orientation groups combine. courtney notices peter almost immediately b/c he is super cute (the cutest of all in fact). so she is ELATED when he decides to turn around and start talking to her as they are walking on one of the campus tours (by the way, i only remember all of these details b/c i happened to write three entire entries about him in my diary. yes i used to keep a dairy.). they spend the entire time together, have some pretty memorable moments and everything seems to be going swimmingly. courtney is thinking she pretty much has found her college boyfriend already. well, don't so excited just yet. because peter, who is half german, finds out AT orientation that he has been accepted to a school in germany that he really wants to go to. SO, he tells courtney that he's probably going to go there. and by probably he means definitely. courtney is devastated, but thinks well....what can ya do? a week later, peter drives down (quite a long way i might add) to take courtney on a date. it is really sweet and she really likes him a lot, but they both know they will likely never see each other again and say goodbye.
that story would suck so bad if it was the end......but it is not :)
so college happens. and there is zero communication for seven and a half years (it was in the dark ages before facebook). fast forward to present day (this past summer actually), when courtney decides to randomly look peter up on facebook...ya know...just out of curiousity. and i know sometimes curiosity hurts the kitty (we don't say kills around our kitties), but in this case i would say it definitely paid off :) sure enough, there he was. cute as ever. and still in germany. courtney sends the friend request, and the rest is history! ALTHOUGH - let me just point out that at first peter did not remember who she was. so rude.
but anyway, that's the background info for ya. he came home for christmas/the new year and we got to spend some time together then. he was originally supposed to leave a couple days after our snow day date, but by that point he had decided to rebook his flight and stay an extra 2 weeks (smart boy ;)). so he stayed, we had some amazing times and to make a VERY long story short, now he is my boyfriend. i won't get too mushy about everything on this first introduction blog, but let's just say i am a very, very happy girl :) lots of things happening....lots of plans being made. the first goal being to be in the same PLACE. or the same time zone even would be a step in the right direction! haha.
here are some pics/videos we took while he was in ATL - wish we had taken more, b/c some of these i look kind of busted, but it's the best i could do. i was tired okay? he's cute though so i'll deal with it.
at hudson grill where we met up with chasey!
we had fondue one night, and baked some delicious bread to go with it, but peter had a bit of an incident with the broiler...and i say peter b/c it was totally his fault. haha.
like a good boyfriend, he came to opening night of The Marvelous Wonderettes :) here we are all spiffed up at the after party.
and of course, we have to have a self timed picture. good ole photobooth. gets the job done.
he's pretty cute i guess.... ;)
so yeah... there ya have it. now you know peter :) and the perpetually single girl is no longer single. IT'S A MIRACLE!!!
but now it is my bed time so i will say (in my best german accent), gute nacht and sweet dreaaammmsss!
So today (and yesterday) have been not my faves. This is for a number of reasons.
A) i feel super bloats today. tmi? i don't care. this is my blog and i have decided that i am going to say what is EXACTLY going through my mind today. and i happen to be feeling especially large and in charge in a very uncomfortable way. and today WOULD be the day i have to get measurements taken for my new show (Marvelous Wonderettes). of course it would. THISALWAYSHAPPENSTOME. WHYYYYY???!
B) my workout yesterday almost killed me. not in the good way either. i really felt so horrible. haven't had a workout that made me feel that sick in a LONG time. i'm sure it was because i ate pretty badly this weekend and my body was retaliating, but regardless. it was so brutal and i don't even feel that awesome today.
C) on top of my feeling bloats i didn't get to workout today b/c of my insane schedule. which makes me feel even more bloats.
D) left my computer charger at home on sunday so it has been dead the past two days. i rely a lot on my computer.
E) even though i got a LOT of sleep last night, i woke up looking so atrocious! seriously. i looked like i hadn't slept in DAYS. what is the deal??? what does a girl have to do to get rid of the bags under her eyes? cucumbers? does that really work? cause if so, i have the biggest cucumber you've ever seen in my fridge right now. i'm not even joking...i should post a picture.
F) i'm having an episode of anxiety again. making up scenarios in my mind that someone is mad at me because they haven't returned my calls...so dumb, b/c there's no way they could be and they have never once done something like that. i know this, but my mind does it anyway. again, this is residual of a very bad friendship i had for way too many years. i literally have to pray away those thoughts and feelings or they will consume me. it's an issue i hide very well, but it is definitely an issue.
i think that is most of the reasons. but mostly i'm just in a funk. it is uncontrollable. so all these things seem to be a BIG HUGE DEAL when they're really not. i know. i'm being ridiculous, you can just say it. this too shall pass, right?on a good note though, had lunch today with my mom and sister and it was delightful :) great times and great food and we talked about all kinds of wonderful girly things. that is a great lunch, i say! it has definitely improved my day and my mood.
OKAY, vent session is over officially. i am turning this frown upside down. if you are in your own kind of funk right now, i have a couple videos that will help get rid of yours too. here we go:
i am obsessed with this kid. how sweet and precious is he??? he is just so happy! i am not kidding when i say that i want him for my son.
GAAHHHH it seriously warms my heart every time!!! oh to have not a care in the world. that must be what heaven will be like. pure, unadulterated giddiness. ICAN'TWAIT.
and then there's this. an oldie but GOODIE and one of my favorites of chaseypoo. should make you pee yourself:
